quandry

i can hear you now, my little メロンパンs. モチ先輩、何が欲しい？何をしたい？

ah, my clever, clever little メロンパンs, あなたの先輩 has no freaking clue what she wants to do.

write? yes, モチ先輩 loves to write. but who on earth would pay あなたの先輩 to write things for them?

read? yes, モチ先輩 could read 一日中 quite happily. but no one is going to pay あなたの先輩 to read.

... and that's it, my little メロンパンs. that's it. no one would pay あなたの先輩 to read and write. しかし、あなたの先は読みたくて、書きたい。

hence the sighing and the "i don't know what to do!"ing and the fretting and the sadness.

follow your dreams, my little メロンパンs. search your hearts, find your dreams, and follow them. and let あなたのモチ先輩 cheer you on.